The Holy Gospel According to St. Mark, the 10th Chapter
James and John, the sons of Zebedee, came forward to Jesus and said to him, “Teacher, we want you to do for us whatever we ask of you.” And he said to them, “What is it you want me to do for you?” And they said to him, “Grant us to sit, one at your right hand and one at your left, in your glory.” But Jesus said to them, “You do not know what you are asking. Are you able to drink the cup that I drink, or be baptized with the baptism that I am baptized with?” They replied, “We are able.” Then Jesus said to them, “The cup that I drink you will drink; and with the baptism with which I am baptized, you will be baptized; but to sit at my right hand or at my left is not mine to grant, but it is for those for whom it has been prepared.”
When the ten heard this, they began to be angry with James and John. So Jesus called them and said to them, “You know that among the Gentiles those whom they recognize as their rulers lord it over them, and their great ones are tyrants over them. But it is not so among you; but whoever wishes to become great among you must be your servant, and whoever wishes to be first among you must be slave of all. For the Son of Man came not to be served but to serve, and to give his life a ransom for many.”
James and John… the sons of Zebedee. What did you guys think you’re doing? You KNOW they tried this same thing on their dad Zebedee back when they were kids. “Dad, we want you to say yes.” “Say yes to what?” says Zebedee, not having just fallen off the turnip truck. “Just say yes first and then we’ll tell you!” You KNOW they tried it as kids and you KNOW it didn’t work. How do I know they tried it? Because we’ve ALL tried it! And how often does it work? Right!! It NEVER works! So why were James and John, who were at least chronologically adults at this point, trying to trick Jesus with kindergarten level material?
Now, I don’t KNOW for sure, but my guess is that kindergarten material was all the material they had left! This little kindergarten exchange (and I don’t mean to belittle kindergarteners here, they are typically much smarter than James and John) but this little exchange is happening right after Jesus has told them… not for the first time and not for the second time… but for the THIRD time that the Kingdom of God was not, Not, NOT coming to town the way they expected. Jesus would NOT be raising an army. Jesus would NOT be kicking the Romans out. He would NOT be installed as King of Israel the way they thought and all the disciples would NOT be getting cushy cabinet posts. The Kingdom of God was coming by one way, and one way only… through Jesus’s death and resurrection and the death part was going to hurt… a lot.
Every time Jesus tried to tell them that however, they basically stuck their fingers in their ears and said, “LALALA, I can’t hear you Jesus. We don’t like your NEW FANGLED Messiah way Jesus, we want the OLD WAY… the way we’re used to… the way we’re comfortable with!” The first time Jesus told them he was changing from a “king style” Messiah to a "death and resurrection" style Messiah, Peter spoke for the group and said, “By no means are you changing that!” The second time, the disciples just changed the subject and talked about who among them was the most awesome and now James and John just changed the subject again and started talking about the seating arrangement in the new throne room!
You see, what Jesus was telling them was going to happen was NOT how they wanted things to be! It wasn’t at all what they had been taught for generations would happen! It’s not what their great grandparents, grand parents, parents nor they had been taught or believed was true and right! It was not, Not, NOT what they had become used to and comfortable with over all those generations.
None of them could even begin IMAGINE how this “death and resurrection” crazy idea could possibly work! Jesus! What are you thinking? Jesus! You’re going against TRADITION! Jesus! I don’t LIKE this NEW way! Jesus! This is uncomfortable! Jesus! I want the OLD way back… the TRADITIONAL way… the MEET, RIGHT and SALUTARY way… Jesus! THIS IS REALLY, REALLY HARD!
Interestingly, I think this past week I met James and John’s long lost relative here in Augusta. I saw him in the mirror. Not much hair on top. Ruggedly handsome guy though. He was sort of dragging around mumbling the same things that James and John were mumbling way back then… “Jesus, this is HARD!” And putting together four different churches IS hard and a bit messy too.
There are super, happy, excited people in the church stepping on other people’s toes in their excitement trying to help. There are super grouchy people in the church stepping on other people’s toes, because they are hurt and scared and angry and they want other people to feel their pain. There are excited people outside the church who are cheering and praying and telling the world how wonderful this is and there are grouchy people outside the church telling people this will never, never, never work and it’s dumb and the pastor is dumb and the priest is stupid and we’re all just sad foolish children for even trying and we’re all doomed…DOOMED! JESUS! This is hard!
It is hard. Everything that was, is changing into everything that will be. James and John had NO IDEA what Jesus was talking about when he went on about being “raised from the dead.” We're used to hearing about Easter but they had never even heard of such a thing and like them, we have NO IDEA what this will all look like when God gets done with us either.
But that right there... RIGHT THERE is the key bit isn’t it? WHEN GOD GETS DONE WITH US. I think James and John and his Augusta relative and folks in and out of the church sometimes forget... GOD is in all of this. We forget that God has a plan for us… for our benefit and not for our harm… granted, God’s not come out with a full set of blueprints on this (which is really annoying sometimes) but what’s happening here is God’s work and God has this remarkable tendency to work with the least likely sorts of people and the most impossible situations to accomplish the most unlikely, marvelous and miraculous things!
How on earth was that rich man last week going to get through the eye of a needle? Even if he gave up all his stuff, he’d still be man-sized and a needle is still needle-sized. Can’t be done! But with God… well, God it turns out can reach through the eye of that needle and pull that rich man, James, John, their modern Augusta relative, the Church at 209 and the whole world through! And how on earth did Jesus pick a couple of hard headed, unchanging, kindergarten minded disciples like James and John. What a mess! But with God… well, James and John become St. James and St. John just a bit further down the road on the other side of Easter. And how on earth can four churches from two denominations with all sorts of sorted pasts with priests and pastors who behaved in much too human ways and conflicts and splits and arrogance and piles and piles of emotional baggage begin to make a go of it together? I was told this week by one of those people on the outside that it just couldn’t be done! It couldn’t! It was impossible! How did I EVER believe that all of that mountain of horrible baggage could EVER be overcome? And what on earth did trying this crazy, impossible thing say about me?
I took just a minute and thought about that question. What did trying something crazy, new, impossible, strange and infinitely complicated with four churches with beautiful gifts and wonderful stories and also tons of historical, emotional and painfully human baggage say about me? And then, this long lost relative of James and John said, “I guess it says that I believe in the power of death and resurrection.” And I do. I really do! Amen.
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